Brett is on another camp out tonight and I have to admit, although I probably shouldn't, but I was happy to see him head out. I guess it has been one of those days. While I looked forward to him leaving so I could have a break, I quickly realized how much I needed to change.
I took the kids to eat tonight so I didn't have to make dinner and as while were standing in line I was observing the people around me. There was a man behind us and several people in front of us. A woman quite a bit ahead of us spoke over the top of us (to the man behind us). She said, "There wasn't anyone in line when I got here so I didn't order your food." I looked back and he kind of shrugged his shoulders. We went about our business and ate our dinner. Just before we were done eating I looked over and noticed this couple that had their previous exchange in line. To my surprise the woman stood up and said, "I'm done eating so I'm going." Hmmm... These two were MARRIED!!!
I immediately felt horrible for being glad to have a break for the evening. I can't imagine meeting my husband at a place to eat, ordering without him, and then leaving after I was done eating. I'm grateful for Brett. He works hard for our family. He magnifies his calling and I know that we are in his best interests. He would never think of doing any of the things that I mentioned above. So, here's to an about face for me. It's crazy sometimes that it takes something so small to help us realize what we really have.
Friday, September 19, 2008
One More Day
Grief is such a crazy thing. You can go hours, days, weeks, possibly even months without feeling down and then a memory, or a thought can up and consume you.
We are nearing the 1 year anniversary of Azure's death. I feel somewhat selfish as I want my family here to surround me. I think back on this time a year ago. I was attending a funeral for a dear friend, and trying to understand what it was that caused him to take his life. Little did I know that I would be grieving the loss of my sister.
So, to that end, Azure, this is what we would do if we had just One More Day....
If you were here we would take another walk in the park with Eric and marvel at the miracle of life just one more time
We would lay on the bed laughing at our feet
We would go and get Chinese, only this time we would not do take out. We'd sit and talk and share advice
We would take pictures, pictures and more pictures and we would take the time to write about them
I would say 'I love you' just a little bit more
I would Thank you for doing my laundry, such a selfless service that meant so much
Oh how I wish I just had one more day, one more moment to tell you that I Love You and let you know how important you are in my life.
For now I just pray that I live my life to merit the blessing of spending eternity with you. I marvel at this life and our purpose here. I picture you wrapping your arms around the young children who have lost their lives recently in your home town. I can see you teaching many spirits about the Gospel of Jesus Christ. You were like that, always happy, eager to share your testimony of Christ.
If only I had One More Day, I would be the better person. I miss you Razz. Here's to One More Day....
We are nearing the 1 year anniversary of Azure's death. I feel somewhat selfish as I want my family here to surround me. I think back on this time a year ago. I was attending a funeral for a dear friend, and trying to understand what it was that caused him to take his life. Little did I know that I would be grieving the loss of my sister.
So, to that end, Azure, this is what we would do if we had just One More Day....
If you were here we would take another walk in the park with Eric and marvel at the miracle of life just one more time
We would lay on the bed laughing at our feet
We would go and get Chinese, only this time we would not do take out. We'd sit and talk and share advice
We would take pictures, pictures and more pictures and we would take the time to write about them
I would say 'I love you' just a little bit more
I would Thank you for doing my laundry, such a selfless service that meant so much
Oh how I wish I just had one more day, one more moment to tell you that I Love You and let you know how important you are in my life.
For now I just pray that I live my life to merit the blessing of spending eternity with you. I marvel at this life and our purpose here. I picture you wrapping your arms around the young children who have lost their lives recently in your home town. I can see you teaching many spirits about the Gospel of Jesus Christ. You were like that, always happy, eager to share your testimony of Christ.
If only I had One More Day, I would be the better person. I miss you Razz. Here's to One More Day....
Thursday, September 18, 2008
The Funny Things Kids Say - Part 2
Before I forget... My kids have been pretty funny the past couple of days, so I thought I'd share.
Yesterday, Sydney and I were having lunch together and it was her turn to pray. Her prayer went something like this, "Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for the bodies and the food, please bless the laundry..." So, everyone, please pray that Sydney's prayers come true. I'm pretty sure if they do I won't have to do laundry.
Last night as I was putting the kids to bed and we had just finished a book about a wimpy dog that exercised and at the end he looks into the mirror and sees a buff dog. Ryan said "Mom, I wish I could gain weight. Not the eat and get fat weight, but I wish I could gain muscle weight." Ahh, me too Ryan. I wish that I could gain muscle, and not the flab that is ever so present around my midsection. I like to refer to it as my 'muffin'. That's right, just call me blueberry.
Yesterday, Sydney and I were having lunch together and it was her turn to pray. Her prayer went something like this, "Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for the bodies and the food, please bless the laundry..." So, everyone, please pray that Sydney's prayers come true. I'm pretty sure if they do I won't have to do laundry.
Last night as I was putting the kids to bed and we had just finished a book about a wimpy dog that exercised and at the end he looks into the mirror and sees a buff dog. Ryan said "Mom, I wish I could gain weight. Not the eat and get fat weight, but I wish I could gain muscle weight." Ahh, me too Ryan. I wish that I could gain muscle, and not the flab that is ever so present around my midsection. I like to refer to it as my 'muffin'. That's right, just call me blueberry.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Early Birthday
Well, I treated myself to an early birthday present. I sold our bike trailer and canceled my gym membership to be able to swing it, but I'm pretty sure it is one of the best birthday gifts a girl can buy herself.
What is it you ask, why, it is a Bosch Universal Plus Mixer, and a Wonder Mill Wheat grinder.
Let the bread making begin....
Brett made some mashed potatoes in the mixer tonight and it only took a couple of minutes. Bread went from taking 4 hours to make to taking 1-2 hours to make. It goes directly from the bowl into the pans and it is light and delicious.
Thank you Self for buying a mixer. May your days be full of yummy bread.
What is it you ask, why, it is a Bosch Universal Plus Mixer, and a Wonder Mill Wheat grinder.
Let the bread making begin....
Brett made some mashed potatoes in the mixer tonight and it only took a couple of minutes. Bread went from taking 4 hours to make to taking 1-2 hours to make. It goes directly from the bowl into the pans and it is light and delicious.
Thank you Self for buying a mixer. May your days be full of yummy bread.
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