This year we were able to go home for the kids' fall break. Since the death of my sister 5 years ago I have not been home for the anniversary. Each year I long to be home and this year we were able to visit. That being said, I don't know that I want to be there on 'that' day again. She is not there. I feel her closer in my own home than I do standing over her grave.
We went down memory lane with my dad and helped get firewood. It was a joy for me to experience getting wood again. My dad took his truck through mountainous passes that no truck should ever tread, but that's what you do to get the 'right' wood.
I pictured myself in the back of my Grandpa Bigler's truck as he drove through mountainous passes that shouldn't be tread on and heard his voice yell out the window "DUCK" just in time to narrowly miss the trees that likely could have knocked us out of the truck.
I used the chain saw and realized that I have no business using a chain saw. I'll stick to the puzzle of trying to stack all of the wood in the truck so that we can maximize what we get, while still realizing I am not quite my mother's daughter. I'm sure she would have fit more in that truck.
We watched Azure's favorite movies, "Liar, Liar", and "Girls Just Want to Have Fun". I'm pretty sure Azure was apologizing from heaven for laughing so hard at those movies. I'm also pretty sure I've never seen my son blush so much, and laugh so hard at the naughty one-liners that Jim Carey says in "Liar, Liar".
We enjoyed cousin time and 'Favorite Auntie' time. It was a much needed trip home.
